After much self-examination and introspection, I believe I now understand the root of my social anxiety.
I desperately do not want to come off as a huge creep or weirdo. I realize how I look, I’m a big black guy with a mohawk who’s resting facial position is not a smile.
So I get nervous to strike up conversations because my immediate thought is “Oh no this person is going to think I’m a big ol’ weirdo.”
And this goes doubly for any girl I’m interested, then it switches to “Oh no she is going to think I’m some kind of creepy bear monster.” Like, I don’t want to flirt with a girl who’s not feeling me? You feel me?
And much like most species of bears, I’m more afraid of you than you are of me.